The post-MCAT blues

Alas, it has been a few days since the dreaded MCAT. I have to say that I was initially very relieved and have since moved on to being completely mortified by my performance on the exam. I can only hope that I did not do as poorly as I so firmly believe. Worst case scenario is that I have to take it again in August. The exam was pretty damn difficult. I think that I got one of the harder versions. Physical sciences and verbal were not too terrible, but the biological sciences section was just brutal. By brutal, I mean that I stared at the free standing questions with a look of horror and thinking to myself "aren't these supposed to be the easy points questions?????" There were some things on there that really threw me for a loop. On the whole I would recommend to anyone planning on taking the exam to enroll in a prep course. I would have been totally screwed without it, but than again, I am not the smartest cookie around. I don't think, however, that I was adequately prepared for all of the biology that was thrown my way that horrible torrential downpour of a day. The orgo stuff was not bad, but the bio really kicked my ass....have I said that enough yet.

Now comes the waiting and the fretting until the first week of June, when I can apparently access my scores. I don't think anyone will want to be around me on that day.....

Even worse is that I still have another month left of school.....I have a round of exams and then finals to contend with. I was pretty out of it on sunday and monday of this week, but I have finally come around to focusing in on what remains of this semester and so I am off to study...

cheers all.


QUOTE OF THE DAY
"When you talk to God they call it praying, but when God talks to you they call it schizophrenia"
-Fox Mulder

QUOTE OF THE DAY

"Dark this heavy past, tension over talking"
-from "Goneja", The Greater Wrong of the Right, Skinny Puppy

Holy jeebus..........F=ma....(X1m1 +X2m2 + X3m3)/(m1+m2+m3)....H + OH = H2O and all sorts of other useless crap rolling around in my head

Oh yes....here I am.

MCAT is on the schedule Saturday, April 22nd. I am officially freaking out....I need to go to my isolated cave and find my power animal...."slide...hee hee hee."

So I have been listening to XM Radio Comedy.

They had a clip of a guy calling information...
"Thank you for calling directory assistance what listing please"
"Batman"
"Thank you please hold for the operator"
Yes sir, what listing?"
"Batman"
"Is that Manhttan?"
"Gotham City"
"What?..."
"Gotham City"
"Wha..where is that?"
"Manhattan"
"Alright than, is there a first name?"
"....Bruce"
"Is that a business or a residence?"
"Residence...he lives in a lair"
"Hmm...OK...Uh...no..I don't see a listing for a first name Bruce last name Batman"
"I will find Batman"
"sir?"
"I will find Batman, with all of my hatred"
"Alright sir, well good luck with that"

Yeah I guess you had to be there, but it was pretty damn funny.

So the wife and I are in the midst of watching The West Wing on DVD and I have to tell you all that this was a damn good show....I remember seeing some episodes of the first and second season when it was on tv for the first time. I wish that there was someone that I could be excited about out there. If I could vote a tv character to be president and replecate his entire cabinet it would be this one. Yes...that is retarded. Not to give anything away but there was a bit about an assasination attempt and my wife said "I wonder if anyone has planned an attempt on the current leader?"...and later she realized who would be the leader if that happend....yeah...probably no attempts and believe it or not that is a really good thing. Geez I guess I shouldn't be talking about this cause I could get arrested or something....but I ain't said no names nor places....ha ha.

Blah blah blah, physics, blah blah blah, chemistry, blah blah blah, biology, blah blah blah, verbal reasoning, blah blah blah, writing samples, blah blah blah, organic chemistry. Oh my freekin god...what the hell am I doing...can I do this....do I want to go to med school.....jeebus L. cristmas....argh, argh, argh.....it's only a test, it's only a test.....remember to breathe...just breathe....go to your happy place.....

During my prep course one of our instructors wanted to start his own company and the mascot or insignia would be Rammy the big...well...you know....and all of the questions in the manual would be "what would Rammy do...?" Physics questions would be so much more fun that way... i.e. Rammy is thrusting with an initial velocity of x and at 2 minutes later with a reduced velocity of y. What is rammy's acceleration in the first minute. (Rammy always uses lubricant, so it is a friction can be ignored...")...ok so milhouse has officially lost it and gone for the X-rating.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Principal Skinner what happend to your hand?"
"I believe it was some sort of boating accident....I have to go now"

Organic Chemistry sucks ass!!!! I study and I study....and da shit just don't want to work out for me......I will be so goddamned happy when this stupid ass f**cking semester is over.......Argggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Thoughts for the day

1. What happened to Karl Malden...remember The Streets of San Francisco? The law and order of 30 years ago.

2. How did the word dyke become associated with lesbians? I mean honestly how does an embankment built to prevent flooding also mean a gay woman....

3. The lines are drawn and the season has begun....Red Sox (1-1) Yankees (1-1) another 100 and change to go. Baseball....gotta love the game.

4. Have you gotten your new kenmore washer, dryer, oven, etc.

5. Blech

6. I'm hungry

7. I am going to eat.

8. I'll write more soon

9. Maybe

10. Jam jamma joo

11. There are a number of people in my world history class who have not heard of or do not listen to the beatles....this is very very wrong.

I'm gonna sing the doom song now...

For those of you who haven't heard from me in awhile, well, I am alive and perhaps well. I am very much looking forward to ending this sad sad semester of school. The motivational ringing in my ears has diminished a bit. I may or may not be taking the MCAT in April. It has been suggested to me to see what happens in the next couple of practice exams and what happens that week. If I can manage to feel comfortable with the whole thing than maybe I will get it out of the way. My pre-med advisor has said that she is a bit concerned with the whole thing and who can blame her....I need a kick ass score to get my foot in the damn med school door. I have improved over the past several months in terms of scoring, but it does not appear to be where I need to be with 18 days to go. Worse case scenario is that I wait until August and use the summer to hone my skills on this oh so dreadful piece of standardized testing. My score has gone up a mere 6 points overall putting me right square in the middle of the road with the national average....and that is exactly what it is....average....I need at least another 6 points to even be considered a decent applicant....and so the summer maybe just what I need to achieve this goal. In other school news, my classes suck ass this semester. I just don't feel the drive much right now. They are hard, and although I feel like I am studying my ass off I am not performing so well on exams. I think my GPA may take antoher dip this time around. I thought this semester was going to be easier on me....I have a better schedule in terms of time, I have one "light" class along with orgo 2, physics 2, and the associated labs, but I just don't know if I can do it this semester....last semester sucked ass too and maybe I am still feeling the effects of that.

Onward soldier say I. I am not giving up on the goal. I have worked far to hard to come this far just to simply quit this thing. I am going to get into med school somewhere and I will not give up until I do...OK if I don't get in in the next five years than maybe it was not meant to be. This move and this dream just feel right...it just feels like this is what I should be doing with my life.

I'll be applying to about 20 or so schools including all of the ones in New York State, and others from around the country.

I have my committee member interview for my pre-professional office recommendation this thursday and I must say I am a little excited about it. At least I know I am getting one piece of the puzzle right....well....we'll see what the guy thinks of me. He's a psych professor who got his PhD at MIT....so I'm wondering what kind of curves he is going to throw at me. Supposedly all of the committee people are treating these interviews as mock interviews for med school....a good idea...just to give us an idea of what these things can be like. For all the crap that my school gets I can say that the pre-professional office and the people that work there really do show how much they want all of us to succeed. I know that when we get in to med school it makes them look good too, but it is nice to know that they are their helping us....and giving us straight answers...(i.e., if you don't get such and such a score mil, you are not going to have a chance in hell of getting in anywhere....etc.)

I should be studying for a physics exam, but studying at work does not ever work out in any sort of fashion whatsoever. There is always something to do here....like updating a blog for instance....that and the damn spider solitaire...oh yeah, and my boss bothering me every other minute to remember to pay some sort of bill or other....today it was.....hey, can you go through all the cabinets and throw out all the old stationary from old shows we won't need that many scrap envelopes etc...whereas several months ago, it was don't throw so much of that stuff away because we can always use it for scrap paper....yes...this is my life.

LOST was freekin' awesome last week....can't wait to see what happens now. damn you tv damn you to hell.......

have a good one all.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"How is education supposed to make me feel smarter? Besides, every time I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out of my brain. Remember when I took that home winemaking course, and I forgot how to drive?"
-The incomparable Homer Simpson












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